The Beginning

I’ve had a book blog for about 9 months and I was surprised by how much I enjoyed doing it.  I’ve been tossing around the idea on whether or not I wanted to start a more personal blog for awhile now and when I found out that my friend Courtney had one I got that final push to start one.  Plus, my birthday is in just a few weeks, so it seems like the perfect place to start.

My goal is to be honest here.  And hopefully become more honest with myself.

One of my biggest problems is that I am a classic self-sabotager.  My second biggest problem is my weight. Both of which come together to form a circle.  I blame lack of success on my weight and I blame my weight on lack of success.  I’m trying to break that cycle.  and get a refresh on life.

I’m not giving myself any deadlines here (because we all know how well THAT works out) but here are some things that I plan on working on/would like to accomplish.

• Raising my self confidence.  I let my weight decide who I am.  I had a lot more confidence 2 years ago when I was 30 lbs lighter than what I have today.
• Lose the weight and keep it off.  I plan on setting some smaller goals for this but all total I’d like to lose about 90-100 lbs.  I don’t need/want to be super skinny, I really just want to buy normal clothes from the normal women’s section.
• Work on my house more.  There are things I want to do to my house but I don’t have a lot of money, time  or the necessary skills to do the things I want to do.  When I started blogging I kind of put the house aside and I need to get back to working on the little things and saving for the big things.
• Work on REALLY sticking to my budget.  A lot of months I come pretty close, except the categories are all off (i.e. I spent $30 extra on books, but nothing for my house).  As a whole it works, but that wasn’t really want the money was supposed to go for, so I think I’m going to start putting that money into a separate savings account so I can use it for it’s intended purpose when I need it.
• Since I’d like to actually get married someday, I am going to have to make an effort to actually date.  I don’t care for dating, but it’s a necessary evil and since I don’t have a fairy godmother to make all my wishes come true it looks like I’m going to have to suck it up and do it.  I’m not sure where I am going to start with this one.
• Whatever else pops into my head!

I hope that a month from now, a year from now, ten years from now I can look back on this and see the changes, and be happy with them.