A Stressful Month

I’m finally starting to lose some weight, which feels great. Unfortunately October is turning out to be a crazy month, this coming week especially. Next weekend is the readathon so I’m doing two weeks of schedules this week. On top of that my cousin and his fiancé will be moving in next Sunday for a few months so I have a lot to do to get ready for them. And all this is in addition to the math test that I’m scheduled to take November 3 that I have zero interest in studying for.

I’m really struggling with that right now and I’m kind of grateful that there is so much going on so that I have a reason for not studying. This stuff is really hard and it’s not sticking that easily and I don’t want to put forth the effort to do it. But I’m worried that if I just go in with a middle school math test it limits my possibilities too much and I might be doing all this and not getting a job.  Which scares the hell out of me. I’m afraid of throwing good money after bad.

I’m not as afraid of taking the class, the material will be new and structured which is more my thing. But it does mean that I’ll have a lot less time for fun things. But in the end I know it’ll be worth it, so I want to do it. I just don’t know what to do about this math thing. Part of me just wants to forget it and cancel the test and get half my $ back. Part of me wants to just see if I can start the class and push back that test date so I have more time, but I’m not sure if that’ll help since I don’t really want to study for it anyway.

I hate having to make big decisions.

So Frustrated!

This month is going awful! I have gained weight back (approximately 5 lbs), I’m not ready for my test, I found out I have to take another test, and I’m still not sure this is the right thing to do! On top of all this I have to replace at least one window in my house. I’m also adjusting to having my cousin and his fiancé living with me. It’s only for a few months but I’m used to living on my own so it’s an adjustment. But I know it’ll be fine.

Whew! I feel better now! It looks like for the next two weeks I’ll be studying like a mad hatter for this math test. I really hope I pass, but I desperately hope I never teach calculus.