I’m finally starting to lose some weight, which feels great.
Unfortunately October is turning out to be a crazy month, this coming
week especially. Next weekend is the readathon so I’m doing two weeks of
schedules this week. On top of that my cousin and his fiancé will be
moving in next Sunday for a few months so I have a lot to do to get
ready for them. And all this is in addition to the math test that I’m
scheduled to take November 3 that I have zero interest in studying for.
I’m really struggling with that right now and I’m kind of grateful
that there is so much going on so that I have a reason for not studying.
This stuff is really hard and it’s not sticking that easily and I don’t
want to put forth the effort to do it. But I’m worried that if I just
go in with a middle school math test it limits my possibilities too much
and I might be doing all this and not getting a job. Which scares the
hell out of me. I’m afraid of throwing good money after bad.
I’m not as afraid of taking the class, the material will be new and
structured which is more my thing. But it does mean that I’ll have a lot
less time for fun things. But in the end I know it’ll be worth it, so I
want to do it. I just don’t know what to do about this math thing. Part
of me just wants to forget it and cancel the test and get half my $
back. Part of me wants to just see if I can start the class and push
back that test date so I have more time, but I’m not sure if that’ll
help since I don’t really want to study for it anyway.
I hate having to make big decisions.
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